New York, New York

Friday night, I'm sitting on the couch watching 'Smart People'. I do love Sarah Jessica Parker in everything she does.

I'm also browsing apartments in NYC looking for a dream place. Which I can't get excited about yet, because we haven't got the bloody contract! We are less than 3 weeks away from getting married though, which I CAN get excited about.

I have been working out every day, and have definitely lost weight. I even got back into my jeans yesterday. Secretly I'm hoping that this weight loss could help us get pregnant.
Tom is scheduled in for his semen analysis in 2 weeks, which he is dreading! But it will be good to get it over and done with. Then at least we will have all the facts.

The bad thing is that he has to abstain for 3 days, which co-incides with our TTC time this month! Perhaps getting pregnant now wouldn't be the best idea, but I still want it SO much. I watch A Baby Story every Friday. Is it ridiculous that I look forward to child birth?

Untrustworthy

I haven't written for a while, and boy have things changed!

We are now fast tracking a wedding in 4 weeks, and looking to move to NYC by the end of October.
I have joined up with a personal trainer, and am going 6 days per week. I really don't want to be chubby on my wedding day, no matter how un-traditional it's going to be.

Today I asked DH if I could install a piece of software on his computer (logged in as me!) to plan my food and menus over the next 3 weeks. He wouldn't give me the admin password to do it.
I am very confused and quite angry about it TBH. He gave me a spiel about having one password for everything, and wanting to keep things private. Which I totally respect. However, it all implied that I was going to use that password to get into his private things. Which of course I wasn't.

So now I have chores to do, and am trying to keep my mind off why he was so mistrusting of me.

No baby again this month. DH has now agreed to have the semen analysis, so it looks like we'll try and get that done and see the OB before we leave for NYC. I'm not sure how quickly we can use the healthcare plan we're getting once we arrive, so I'd rather sort these things out now.

I really hope he hasn't got any problems, and we can just keep trying without a care in the world.
What is it going to be like having a baby in NYC?

So many things are unknown and I hate it. I'm hoping all this bloody exercise will help keep me balanced.